I just got home from Jessica's house a little bit ago and I decide I want to update my profile picture on facebook. As I'm scrolling through the pictures, I am taken back to when each picture was taken. I'm trying to remember the conversations I had with who ever is in the picture, the reason why the picture was taken, what milestone may have been happening, what emotions were felt, etc.
I find this picture of my mom which has a comment she left. The caption I wrote when I posted the photo was, " this is my mama, i love this lady." She commented, " Always and forever! I love you and always and forever. I am honored to be 'mom'".
I can hear her voice saying it. It's comforting and sad. Kinda weird. How can something be comforting and sad?
Sometimes I forget what her voice sounds like. I have my wedding video where I can hear her voice because she gave an interview saying how proud and happy she was of Devin and I. I love that I have that.
No one knows this, but I have kept the text messages we had up until the last time I was able to use my iphone before I arrived in Korea in July 2011. On days I really miss her, I look back at the text messages and read what she wrote.
I'm beyond happy to know that she truly loved me and would move mountains for Janna and I. One day, we will meet again. Until then, continue to be the best guardian angel a daughter could ask for Mama.
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