Happy 57th Mama

So I don't if you have seen Long Island Medium, but I am not a consistent follower of the show. For some reason, the last few episodes I have been watching and have become really interested. I mean so interested that I signed Janna, my dad, and I up to speak with her one day. So we are on the waiting list. Whenever the day comes that our names our next, if my sister and dad don't want to go through with it that's fine.

Anyways, so I woke up this morning and made Devin's lunch and breakfast like usual. I was kinda tired but I decided to stay up and watch some shows I recorded last night since I was working. I knew it was Long Island Medium's season finale and she was sending her youngest daughter off to college and doing a group reading on Halloween.

So I am currently watching the season finale episode where she sends her daughter off to college. They go shopping for items to put in her dorm room and come across a sign that has the entire " You are my sunshine" song. Theresa starts crying because she said that her grandma use to sing that to all the grandkids and great grandkids and had her daughter get the sign because she believed that her grandma was definitely sending her and Victoria a sign that she was watching over them. Theresa says that she believes our loved ones send us signs like that at times when we need them most.

Now call me crazy, but today is my mom's 57th birthday. This is the first birthday of her's that she is not here for. My mom would sing "You are my sunshine" to Janna and I when we were growing up. How crazy is it that I am watching a tv show about a lady who talks to dead people and her and her daughter come across a sign that was something my mom use to sing. I truly believe it was a sign from her saying that she is here for her birthday. When I saw that, I cried and I said out loud, "Happy Birthday Mama."

Well then Theresa, her husband and their son are helping Victoria move into the dorm room. They are unloading the car and setting things up in her room. Her roommate comes in with her mom and they start carrying on a conversation about how their day was before they arrived. Theresa says, " I know my grandma is watching over them." She told them about the sign and then looked at Victoria's roommate's mom and said, "Did your mom pass? Because she is coming forward and saying 'Hey I am here to watch over my granddaughter too!'" She started to cry. Theresa explained that she was medium and what that meant. Theresa then says," Was your mom unable to communicate at the end? She wasn't able to show any emotion?"

In the end, my mom wasn't able to communicate either. She started having horrible headaches to where she wasn't awake. She slept all day. When she would open her eyes, she would just look at you. We would smile at her and give her hugs and kisses on her forehead and rub her head. She would always twirl her hair to relax herself. We would play with her hair for her because you could tell she was uncomfortable by how much she tossed and turned when the medicine would wear off.

I felt like she didn't know if I was there or not.

I believe my mom was/ is sitting next to me while I was watching the show. There were too many coincidences that were things that were true and spot on about my mom.

Also, I considered my mom my best friend. We may have argued about petty things, but whenever I had a bad day or was worried or happy, any emotion really, I called her.  She always knew what to say to calm me down or make me feel better. She also helped me see the other person's point of view.

At the very end of the episode, Theresa says, "I'm going to miss Victoria. She is my best friend."

When she said that, I knew for sure my mom was showing " Hey I am here on my birthday and I am smiling at you patting your back."

Happy 57th Birthday Mama. You are the angel you were always meant to be.