My Mom was so brave God made her an Angel

This month I have been having some trouble falling asleep at night. I don't know if it's my body and mind reliving what happened a year ago or what the deal is.

I usually don't have such a hard time falling asleep, but I end lying in bed for 30 minutes listening to Devin snore and the radio play. I take deep breaths and try to relax, but it seems like when I exhale the tension creeps back in.

I bought some melatonin the other day to help my body get back on track a little bit, but I haven't been able to give it a good try with my work schedule.

I full thought I wasn't going to be working last night or tonight, but little did I know I was.

Being a waitress is something I will definitely not miss. I really liked being a receptionist. Shoot working 9-4 having weekends and holidays off. It was nice. Now I'm working at night only while Devin is at home. It's a bit frustrating. I'm just glad I won't have to do this too much longer.

Anyways, I laid in bed last night thinking about where I was on this day last year. I couldn't help but cry. Not sobs just normal tears. It's weird that it's going to be a year tomorrow.

I must say this is the hardest year I have ever had to experience. I lost my mom, I moved back to the states, finishing up school, getting a new job,etc. Life and God have definitely shown me that I can conquer anything I am given.

I know I won't be in the best state of mind tomorrow, but luckily I have Devin, Janna, and my dad along with great friends.

 Thursday is Thanksgiving. Friday would be my parent's anniversary. I know my Dad will be having a tough week.

I talk to my Dad often, but it's nothing compared to my mom. My mom would send text messages all throughout the day whether we just off the phone or not. My dad doesn't really do that. I'm not saying that he needs to it's just we have a different relationship than my mom and I had.

I talked to my Aunt Bea yesterday. I never realized how much her and my mom looked like alike until she came to visit in September. I was in awe. It was like seeing my mom. It hit home a little. When I talk to her on the phone, she reminds me of my mom sometimes, but then she says something that is so NOT my mom and I snap back and remember nope still my  Aunt. lol

I really just the next couple of days to fly by.